blood donation xD

Sunday, October 31, 2010♥

life has been prettayee much a 1/2 1/2 for me.
the holidays always make me see things clearly.
friends come, friends stay, friends go. its like this unbreakable cycle. i'm so sick and tired of this gawddamn cycle. really. i'm starting to have this thought of isolating myself. or even, to stay on a deserted island with no one. nobody = no relationship.

i know to most ppl, i appear to be fierce, loud, unreasonable. that's why ppl often use the excuse of "i dun dare to be frank with qy cuz i'm afraid that she will flare u" to these ppl, i can only say "GND, xiexie ni" who are you to assume that i'll flare up.

i was so badly affected by all these happening in my life. i MIA for quite some time. sorry to those who really cared. it was until some who came to knock some sense into me (literally) that i got out of my "isolation". these are true friends. friends who come and find u when u're missing. not people who say 'oh, i wonder where you've been recently, i was so worried'.

no, i dun mean that i'm a good friend. i've been a bad friend too. i lost a friendship recently. not gonna say much here. it was quite a blow to me. but yea, "recovering".

new sem, new start. have been really hardworking. gonna prove to some people that they are not the only "smart people" living in this world. (:

suddenly remembered smth that i MUST blog about it so that i can remember forever. hahas. last friday, i decided to go for the blood donation drive at NP. prepared myself psychologically already, managed to persuade myself and psycho-ed myself that it won't be painful. happily went to ourspace and guess wad? i saw this signboard stating "please have yr lunch before donating yr blood" (smth like that) =.= like omgwth. i was so prepared thn BOOM. i had to go have my lunch, meaning i have to re-prepare myself. okay, nvm. i went to have my lunch thn went back. filled up the form and went inside. was at the "doctor's corner" to check my blood pressure and stuff. then cuz we had to declare if we have gone to any country within this 3 yrs - i went batam 2 weeks ago. then this funny convo came (between me and the doctor of cuz! i dun do self-talk =.=)

doctor: oh, u've went to batam. then we'll have to take a sample of ur blood for a test for malaria
me: does that mean that i've to be poked twice?
doctor: (almost laughed) oh, nonono. u'll be donating blood just like the others and we'll take the sample from the packet of blood u've donated.
me: oh (heaved a SUPER BIG sigh of relief)
----awkward silence while waiting for the readings to show----
me: so is malaria something like dengue fever (who the hell wud chat with a doctor at a donation drive man =.=)
doctor: *perhaps thinking "why is this stupid girl asking so much"* oh, no. but if u ask me, i wud rather get dengue fever because i've seen people dying from malaria"
me: ohh...

thn finally the readings show. =.= i went in and sat a chair then this nurse came. it was this "station" to check the iron in my blood. yea, they will "puncture" a hole in ur finger and squeeze the blood out onto this "plate" to test. i swear it was kinda itchy when she "puncture" the needle in. the passing rate was 12.5. anything below 12.5 wud nt be allowed to donate. mine was 12.7 (phewwww)
she thn asked me to lie on one of those chair-thingy and wait for someone to attend to me.

a nurse came and asked "have anyone checked ur veins outside". i shook my head. then she put that blood pressure thing over my arm (which i supposed it's for stopping my blood) then she started pressing? my arm. she was mumbling smth which i have no idea wad then she asked for my other arm. guess wad?

nurse: ur veins are too small. (right arm - cannot see any vein =.=) yr left arm one still okay but if donate halfway will stop, then we'll have to poke again. we dun wanna traumatise u, so try again nx time

can u totally imagine how i was feeling at that moment?! i was totally angry yet amused yet disappointed. i wanna donate my blood, yet my veins too small. ): loser much. i'm gonna try again nx time xD

in times like this,
u see ur true friends clearly.

Labels: true feelings

smile with me at 11:18:00 PM

a brand new start

Monday, October 25, 2010♥

a new semester, a new start.
all that matters now is my studies. nothing else.





i couldn't say hello. smile with me at 10:17:00 PM

Friday, October 08, 2010♥

feeling so shitty nw.
but yet at the same time feeling very relieved.
everything have finally come an end.
but qy has fallen.
i'm gonna go into hiding from the time being.
away from all sorts of relationships.

and you, cheer up soon. smile with me at 1:10:00 PM

Thursday, October 07, 2010♥

i'm going to batam this weekend!
hip hip hoorayyy~~!!!! smile with me at 11:55:00 PM

i tried suppressing
i tried thinking that perhaps, u'd ur own reasons.
but no.
not at all.
i'm so tired of waiting for this friendship.
you, made me cry.
you, gave up on this friendship.
i'm so tired.
i'm not gonna try to keep up to ur pace.
not gonna try to maintain our friendship
we shudn't have let our paths crossed at all.

i've got so much thoughts that i just simply can't post it here. smile with me at 11:24:00 PM

where'd you go

Wednesday, October 06, 2010♥

i've been a very very very bad friend to someone.
i've been expecting so much from you but i didnt realise it was actually too much of me to do so.
i guess,
it's better for us to be strangers?
just like wad u've said from the start.
):


i'm not happy today): smile with me at 10:58:00 PM

i want a guy best friend so freaking badly

i want a guy best friend.
one who wud be there for me when i need a guy's point of view
who wud stand up to help me when i'm being bullied.
one who wud lend his shoulder when i nid to cry so freaking badly


in short, everything that a bf wud do for a gf but not crossing that line.

how nice xDD

my blog is getting nonsensical ): smile with me at 1:20:00 AM

without falling down, how would one know the pain of falling?

Tuesday, October 05, 2010♥

salute to our MM's wife.
rest in peace (:

very touched by the love between our MM and his wife.
(:


end with a happy post makes me feel so happy xD smile with me at 11:23:00 PM

I'M SO TIRED ):

i'm not going back to npcc for good.
byebye cadets.


i'm so lazy to blog ):

one more time someone tell me office work is slack and better than studying,
i'll box that person to outer space. smile with me at 11:21:00 PM