Wednesday, June 30, 2010♥

i can say, my life is at my lowest point now. (at least up till these 18 years)
struggling with school work,
future seems so dim now,
constantly having people who wants to enter my life to screw it badly then leave
parents who don't understand me at all,
parents who only know how to hurl vulgarities when i'm very tired and just need some rest,
fighting so hard for a love that seems so far,
putting on a mask everyday to school,
enduring shits from ppl yet cannot retaliate.

i'm really very sick of faking a smile to school everyday
qy is NOT a clown kay.
i dont necessarily have to smile and make everyone laugh everyday.
i'm not having a very nice time now.
i'm really very tempted to shut myself in a cave and never ever come out.
i'm tired of facing people.
i don't even wish to talk now.
i just want some time alone, to rest, to settle my thoughts
but no!
they just have to come in and ruin everything.
i come home, being very drained by stats.
just wanted to catch some sleep, guess wad?
woke up hearing HER hurling vulgarities to my sister about me giving attitude and stuff
WTH?
u guys like to come home late late late,
u all didnt know how i was everyday when i reach home then DON'T say that i'm giving attitude.
u guys chose to let me grow up independently, u guys chose to give shit care to me when i needed guidance during my growing up years, u guys chose to be concerned about my results only.
then let's continue this way please?
don't come into my life now to mess up everything.
dun expect me to tell u guys everything now cuz we ain't that close.
do u tell things to a stranger?
to me, u guys are like strangers, very distant, very far.
it's like i almost couldn't reach.
where were u guys when i was calling out for help, where were u guys when i needed support.
then when i dun tell u guys stuff, this is called attitude?
and please, u guys didnt even ask me.
when i dun talk first, it's called attitude.
crap.
stop all these nonsense please.
for now, my priority would only be studies.
nth else.
i really dun have the spare energy to think about other stuff.
i'll break down.
stop pushing me to my limits.
a rubber band can snap if over-stretched.
i'm damn tired of smiling.

leave me alone if u think that u'll ruin my life.
and i'll leave u alone too.

i'm really very very very very drained..

i still have to wait for 2nd july, for a date from u..
i really dun have the strength to wait already..
i'm breaking down soon.
if u're moving on, then all the best.
good luck to u.
i've really put in my best of efforts.
if it's not going to work, it won't work.
so i'm gonna stop trying.
goodbye. smile with me at 8:37:00 PM

when a guy doesn't care,
he really doesn't care - he's just not that into you -

so wad am i suppose to infer?
:X

i was suppose to blog alot of things, but i guess, i lost my train of thoughts.
so shall blog tonight :X


(4:55 PM) ˚ shïyïиg: yeah i think so too haha
wah right now your life is really at the worst of the worst

(4:55 PM) qianying ;; I AM: yes
nvm ba
after storm will have rainbow de

(4:55 PM) ˚ shïyïиg: of course!!
someone up there testing you

(4:55 PM) qianying ;; I AM: just pray hard i can endure thru the storm

(4:56 PM) ˚ shïyïиg: after that will have reward

(4:56 PM) qianying ;; I AM: :D

(4:56 PM) ˚ shïyïиg: i know that no matter what you will endure one lo
cos if not you will miss us

everything was super encouraging...
till the last sentence.
HAHAHAHAHA.
jking (:
you know i love you all (: smile with me at 6:03:00 PM

Thursday, June 24, 2010♥

wadever the verdict may be,
i won't fight anymore.
i'll just accept wadever cuz i've no more strength and courage nor energy to fight back alrdy.. smile with me at 10:13:00 PM

i grew up independently,
dun come into my life suddenly.
i'm not used to it.
you guys threw me alone to survive in the first place.
i dun blame u guys but pls dun affect my life now. smile with me at 1:37:00 PM

Tuesday, June 22, 2010♥

i nid hugs :/ smile with me at 7:55:00 PM

Monday, June 21, 2010♥

i found my identicals!
but i know he won't read my blog but still..
OMGOSHHH.
i'm very freaked out but our similarities :X

HELLO IDENTICALS!
*pat pat*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i'll rate you soon ^^ smile with me at 11:32:00 PM

Saturday, June 19, 2010♥

when hardwork turns to fun/gossips/truth or dare/laughter!
darren! i never pangseh u :D
i'm so good~~
i'm very sleepy :/ smile with me at 11:45:00 PM

BP!
wanna tell you,
i really thank God for having you in my life (:
we talk, we argue, we share, we laugh at the weirdest things (:
u were ALWAYS there when i needed someone.
thanks for being here for me during my lowest point in life.
i really appreciate ur encouragement.
thanks (:
thanks for knocking some sense into me.
thanks for being there when i wasn't myself.
thanks for all the smiles you've put on my face.
i couldn't thank you enuff.
in summary,
BP FOR LIFE (: I LOVE YOU!

i promise you, i'll get back on my feet real soon.

Labels: happy days

smile with me at 10:45:00 PM

Sunday, June 13, 2010♥

photos taken with my new loveeeee :D
not very professionally taken
(i dunno hw to take photos professionally enuff yet :/)
o.p.i collection (without flash)
smile with me at 4:40:00 PM

I'M BACKKKK TOOO BLOGGGGG~~
yes yes yes, i know my blog is dead :/
no one reads but still!
I'M BACK!

Went to the IT fair ytd
BOUGHT MY DREAM CAMERA!
guess guess guess?
YESHHHHHHHHHH~~~
it's the *adds in STRONG accent* canon powershot s90!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my new baby is current charging nw ):
i PROMISE i'll post photos here later when it's done charging!
CONFIRM MAD AWESOMMEEEEEE PHOTOS :D
goodbye to lousy photos
hello to artistic photo sehhhhh~~
i'm so gonna learn how to take good good photos :D
i know people gonna say "walao, come out so long liao then u buy"
BUT erhem. not everyone rich one okay.
i need time to save :/
and s90 is still the MADEST AWESOMEST camera kay!
kthxbye

with pathetic photos of random dates that i've already forgotten :/
recent till oldies~~
MAD AWESOMEEEEEEE SERVICE AT THAI EXPRESS!
the food wasn't of fantastic level but still! AWESOME SERVICE FTW!
look at that plate of "thing" *i dunno the name* beside my all-time favorite tomyum soup
IT'S SUPER SPICY!
smile with me at 4:06:00 AM