expectations?

Sunday, November 21, 2010♥

it happened AGAIN.
it's like this vicious cycle that i'm stuck in.
it's the same like what happened months ago.
"i'm sorry i can't live up to your expectations"
this sentence hit me badly.
memories of what happened months ago came back immediately.
and i know that i have to go through all these again.

i never once have different expectations of my friends.
all i have is to hope that none of my friends hurt me.
is that really hard to "live up to"?
perhaps. i don't know.
yea, the problem lies with me. i know that okay. the first time it struck me, i can be in self-denial. i can insist that i MIGHT not be at fault. but now, second time. how am i suppose to "feel" that the problem does not lie with me.
yea, i am not a good friend.
i'm sorry if i'm your friend, all of you.
i'm truly sorry.
i need some time alone.

Labels: unhappy memories

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