you smile, i smile (:

Tuesday, November 30, 2010♥

after having a small chat with pw and dina, i've got like a million thoughts running in my head.
we were actually talking abt bgr.
no, dun get me wrong. i don't want to get into a new r/s yet.
it's not that i prefer to be lonely or i'm an antisocial weirdo or wad.

i'm just not ready yet.

i don't wanna fall right smack into a new r/s and end up getting hurt all over again. i think i have enough of it (:

i'm just thinking that i want something/someone in my life to focus on.
1. a new job.

2. a guy friend that i can depend on ( take note i use the words "guy friend" instead of boy friend"
the reason why i want a guy friend is because of this small topic between me & pw. we were saying how nice it will be if we had a guy friend who will stand up for us when we're bullied. <3> 30 mins and i've nth to do at all. i took 30mins to write this post. first time so long i guess. first time so wordy :X i'm getting old and naggy ):




p.s. dina says her butt hurts from sitting for > 30 mins at the bus stop. we're the victims of that stupid late bus "61"

p.p.s dina says "tell everyone, 61 doesn't exist anymore"

Labels: reflection, true feelings

smile with me at 7:41:00 PM

without love

Like a week that's only mondays
Only ice cream never sundaes
Like a circle with no center
Like a door marked "do not enter!"

Darlin i'll be yours forever
'Cause i never wanna be
Without love
now you've captured me
without love
I surrender happily
without love
never set me free
no no no
I ain't lying
never set me free
no no no
no i don't wanna live
without love
Darlin you have best believed me,
never leave me
without love!

Hairspray Movie : Without love <3

I feel so Ol' School xDDD smile with me at 11:47:00 AM

beautiful hearts

remember,

calling others "stupid", doesn't make you any smarter.
calling others "ugly", doesn't make you any prettier.
calling others "fat", doesn't make you any skinnier.

bringing others down, doesn't make you higher class than anyone.

but,

praising someone does make your heart look prettier, smarter, nicer.

so before you decide to laugh at someone for whichever reason, think if it will make you any better (: smile with me at 1:44:00 AM

in no good mood

Sunday, November 28, 2010♥

i can't sleep at all.
crying so freaking badly.
i don't know why am i always landing myself into such situations. sometimes i'm just really pissed at myself for all these.
i guess i should really stfu and hide in a cave or something.

i guess apologies doesnt work everytime.

Labels: unhappy memories

smile with me at 3:38:00 AM

no, i shall not cry.



shit, i cried. smile with me at 2:48:00 AM

Friday, November 26, 2010♥

i'm sorry for being so harsh.
i think we can't even be friends already? :/ oh well.
take care. smile with me at 7:16:00 PM

i'm sorry

it's kinda weird how my brain and my fingers don't coordinate.
so many times i've got a train full of thoughts yet when i log in to blogger, nothing comes out. especially times when i really needed somewhere to throw all my thoughts.

and see, i'm lost again.

okay, i'm enjoying my gym sessions. but not today.
i went alone and OMGWTHBBQMONKEYCHICKENWADEVER the whole gym has only guys. i swear my jaw dropped to the floor when i enter (okay, i'm just joking) but omg. whole gym filled with guys. no girls no females. okay, the only females there are the counter lady and one of the gym coach. but it still felt weird okay.
ohoh. and i swear i'm gonna listen to mp3 nx time i go to the gym. there was this guy who was running beside me kept making weird noises. i ran for 25 mins, he made weird noises about 3/4 of the time. fml much? xD

THIS SHOP SELLS AWESOMEST BREAD

Located at The Central (Clarke Quay Mrt Station)

Why do all good stuff come from The Central uh?

Sticky, Barcook Bakery, actually, it's these two only. LOL.

But they are really good xDD

BEST RAISIN BUN EVER! >

There's cream cheese inside. i swear, it's awesomeeeeee

LOOK AT THE "SKIN" OF THE BUNNNNNNNNN.

SO AWESOME LAAAA

Bought 6 for my family Oolong Milk Tea. one word --> NICE (:

Labels: happy days

smile with me at 6:11:00 PM

Thursday, November 25, 2010♥

TASTE IN THE DARK IS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE
I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

lips can touch <3 smile with me at 12:15:00 AM

expectations?

Sunday, November 21, 2010♥

it happened AGAIN.
it's like this vicious cycle that i'm stuck in.
it's the same like what happened months ago.
"i'm sorry i can't live up to your expectations"
this sentence hit me badly.
memories of what happened months ago came back immediately.
and i know that i have to go through all these again.

i never once have different expectations of my friends.
all i have is to hope that none of my friends hurt me.
is that really hard to "live up to"?
perhaps. i don't know.
yea, the problem lies with me. i know that okay. the first time it struck me, i can be in self-denial. i can insist that i MIGHT not be at fault. but now, second time. how am i suppose to "feel" that the problem does not lie with me.
yea, i am not a good friend.
i'm sorry if i'm your friend, all of you.
i'm truly sorry.
i need some time alone.

Labels: unhappy memories

smile with me at 10:38:00 PM

season of joy

things have been going in 8x speed recently.
i hardly have any time to stop and think before acting.
to be frank,
i regretted some of my actions.

many times i've said that i want a simple life. but come to think of it, how simple do i want it to be?

my thoughts are scattered.
i don't know how to put them in words.
i shan't continue this sad post.

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collected my race pack for SCMS ytd with my mummaye.
it was quite fast (:
i likeyyyy.
after that, we went Changi Aiport xDD
we toured around from T2 -> T3 -> T1 -> T2 -> MRT
cool right!
perhaps spending quality time with my mummaye is a benefit from my lack of friends.
HAHAS. -joking-
we then went to bugis to S-H-O-P. xDD
nonono, we went Sim Lim Square to buy my screen protector first (:
i've been having my phone for 6 mths and i've changed my screen protector for 3-4 times. ^^
this time, i've changed into a super-duper-cool one --> A PRIVACY ONE xDD
my mummaye was like "wah,i really cannot see what you're typing from the side"
mwahahahahaha *evil*
went to bugis street but found nth i like :/
walk walk walk to bugis junction to have dinner xD
at nan xiang something-something restaurant (forgot the name)
we tried the king-sized soup bun. (it sucks)
imagine you pay $6.80 to drink very little soup through a straw (burnt your tongue and lips and fingers while doing so) with no ingredient inside and you won't even wanna eat the skin of the bun. ):
it's really fun to spend quality time with your family.

i'm going for a "jog" later xD
shall i cut my hair too? (:


OH OH OH.
i just had my 4th piercing <3 smile with me at 11:37:00 AM

crawling is a sport

Thursday, November 18, 2010♥

oh yea, i re-opened my blog.
cuz i'm just TOO LAZY TO KEEP KEYING IN MY EMAIL AND PW EVERYTIME I WANNA READ SOMEONE ELSE'S BLOG.
hahas.
i'm so munzhan today (someone's words, oh well :/)

AND

I NEED TO GO FOR A RUN. anywhere.
ngee ann
stadium
park
gym

WHY?

42.195km in 3 more weeks. FML

i'm gonna crawl till the finishing line at this rate ): smile with me at 11:56:00 PM

it won't rain forever

i seriously need to blog this out before i explode.
i don't know if i'm thinking too much but it's so much of a coincidence.
so much till it's kinda hard to believe that it's not wad i think it is.
i need to calm myself down.
i need to start thinking
"what if it isnt me?"
then i'll just laugh and move on. LOL.
okay i totally cannot calm down now. not after two consecutive blows.
the 2nd one, is kinda sensitive to discuss here
so i shall not disclose it here
but damn, it's affecting me quite a fair bit kay.
i want PEACE. i want SIMPLICITY.
however, it seems like these two words are the hardest to come true.
nonetheless, i'm holding on to my faith that everything will be fine.

it won't rain forever.
it will stop
the sun + rainbow will come out and smile to us (: smile with me at 11:21:00 PM

Sunday, November 07, 2010♥

act blur live longer. smile with me at 10:21:00 PM

who knows?

if hurling vulgarities, being loud is being fierce,
i'll keep my mouth shut (: smile with me at 10:05:00 PM

Friday, November 05, 2010♥

IT'S NICEEEEE.
no, i'm not an alcoholic =.=
but don't you think this bottle is niceeeeee? (:
and the taste is MWAHAHAHAHA. ALOHAA~
i don't mind sharing (:

BIG THANK YOU TO MY AUNT FOR GIVING ME! XDDD

i've always been wanting a bottle of liquor for my 18th birthday (:

dreams DO come trueeeee (sometimes)

Labels: dream come true

smile with me at 8:51:00 PM

i really needa cushioned-room.
i wanna kick, scream and whineeeeee all night long.

I&E havent been very smooth-going as expected.
our offer to organise an event at a children's Home has been declined so many times tht i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo disheartened now.
i'm keeping my fingers crossed about the sponsors.
group members aren't having a common consensus on the dates even though on thursday the 3 of us out of our 4 ppl group agreed on the date, one guy changed his mind last min =.=
i mean, i'm not blaming any of them or me or whoever. but last min changing ur mind isnt really that awesomee to praise about.
i can't imagine if i've already booked the "slots" for setting up the booth on 18 & 19. it's not freee~
and it's so hard to get them to reply :/

okay, stop the whining.

have been reading stomp and seeing people's comments.
and i've got this exploding thought of mine that seriously, if it's none of ur business, shuddap.
about the DTE's case, people has been saying really ugly things.
it's so disturbing to see that we do have ugly humans living here.
i mean, is it only online that you dare to post your comments anonymously, people won't know your true identity.
would you dare to go to the speaker's corner to say OUT LOUD about all your disgusting and ugly thoughts?
grow some balls people, stop harrassing innocent people.
if your family member is on stomp, would you want anonymous strangers to comment about his/her family members which so happens to be you?

ohh wellzxzxzxzx.
talking about changing mindset :/

recently, i was talking to my mummaye about how dangerous SG is nowadays :(
it's like i don't really dare to roam around on the streets alone at night anymore.
):

all these while you were merely wearing a mask.
u're so disgustingly gross that i would really wanna kick you into the sea.

friendship politics sucks.
i wanna go back to the time where 1 + 1 = 2.
i hate the present where 2 = 1 + (1x1) - 1 ):

dina is at batam!
COME BACK SOON!!!!!!

i'm strong.
no, i'm not.

Labels: unhappy memories

smile with me at 8:28:00 PM

what if

Tuesday, November 02, 2010♥

what if i'm not the qy you know?
will u choose to stay or will u run away like the rest?

will you thn judge me for who i am or accept me for who i am? smile with me at 11:22:00 PM

in no fun-mode, dude.

Monday, November 01, 2010♥

people ought to learn how to stop forcing me.
i'm at the edge already, dude.
stop pushing me further.

Labels: true feelings

smile with me at 11:53:00 PM