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non-judgmental lens

Monday, March 14, 2011♥

i guess, almost all have heard about the tsunami in Japan.

i just hope that everything will be fine soon.

may all the wishes and hope for a better tomorrow be as magnificent and great like the kites in the sky. they may be far but they are definitely within our grip. we are in full control of our future and our 'better tomorrow'.

i'm 100% positive that everything will be fine soon and a better tomorrow will come.

it won't rain forever.

a thunderstorm will end,

a sun will shine on our faces again

and a rainbow of hope will appear to remind us to never give up.

i know that God has a plan for all of us and He will definitely be looking after the victims of the tsunami. (:

believe in the God you believe in and hold on to the faith.

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it's 4.51am, i have to go down to unit tomorrow and i'm not sleeping yet.

crazy i know.

this is the 2nd week of my end-of-year2 holidays and i feel that i haven't been making good use of it.

during my past 2 holidays, i've been working throughout my holidays with hardly anytime to enjoy nor rest.

though it was tiring, it was fulfilling and fun.

this time round, nothing.

it's just going out with my sister, gaming, mj-ing, watching dramas & NPCC.

it's getting so mundane that i'm getting sick of it.

it's time to find something to do.

to learn a skill or to do something that i've always wanted to do.

but first of all, i must understand what i want to do.

which leads me to wonder,

do anyone dare to say that he/she understands me?

i see myself as someone who isn't exactly an open book but would always try to act like one.

i have tons of eccentric thoughts and my mood change faster than you could ever imagine.

i can argue with you about something that may seem ridiculous to everyone (even to myself) but i would fight my way through.

i wouldn't apologise to people who are angry at me. instead, i'll do more stuff to provoke them.

i see myself as a burden to people who care for me because of my behavior and personality and hurt them.

this is how weird i am yet there are still people who bother and care about me.

these are the people that God has placed in my life to let me know that i'm not alone.

because of all these people, i'm thankful to every single thing in my life.

yes, even stupid haters who just love to bitch about every single thing that i do.

(oh, don't get me started on this. pfft.)

in my life, i've never had the courage to call anyone my bestfriend in fear that the feelings wouldn't be reciprocated.

and at this very moment, i still can't say that i have a best friend.

seeing that others have best friends to share even their smallest secret, frankly?

i'm super duper envious. (not jealous, assholeys)

i've longed for someone to share the secrets that can go nowhere except my heart.

i've always wanted someone who will never judge me no matter what i do or say.

i believe, one day, someone whom i can truly call 'my bestfriend' will appear.

let me guess, i think we'll be super alike? LOL.

both retardedly eccentric.

okay, just joking.

enough of a heavy post.

let's talk about what i've done so far

1. Celebrated my sister's 21st birthday. (planned, decorated, put in tons of effort & money too)

2. Went to zoo (AWESOME) waiting for 2012 when the river safari opens and the panda, polar bears will all be there.

3. Learn how to play 'Blackshot' (okay, nothing to be proud of but still, something new right! ^^)

4. Went kite-flying at marina barrage! first time fly kite, first time to marina barrage! (except during the time when i ran past marina barrage during my 42km)

5. Tried using an instax camera! :D (the films burned a hole in my pocket)

6. Started saving up for my new phone (not gonna tell you all what phone. later all go buy then not special liao. LOL)

okay, i guess these are some of the things that i remember.

all done during these 2 weeks.

come to think of it, looking at all this, my holidays isn't really mundane. LOL.

but i'm gonna find better activities to do!

meanwhile, let's #pray for Japan & all countries that are affected by the Tsunami.

let's pray for a better tomorrow!

appreciate life,

live & let live,

love and be loved.

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sidenote,

i guess, being judgmental like an addiction/habit.

hard to kick off.

because if being judgmental can be cured, the word "ugly" wouldn't have exist.

only when you judge, you see someone as ugly.

then again, who are we to say that someone is ugly?

who sets the definition of "pretty" or "ugly".

what exactly is the definition of "ugly"?

there's no answer to this.

beauty lies in the eyes of its beholders.

so stop judging, today.

see the world through a non-judgmental lens, and the world would be a better place (:

Labels: GMH, reflection, thoughts, true feelings

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