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Tuesday, March 29, 2011♥

i don't blog in a "turn-one-big-round" way.

and i don't intend to do so.

recently, someone told me to learn how to open up to ppl, to share my feelings without the fear of being judged.

and hey, it makes perfect sense.

i know i always have this problem of opening up to ppl and i thought perhaps that person (let's name it Stitch [no special meaning, i merely saw my Stitch waterbottle beside me] )

okay, i thought perhaps Stitch could be the first one i open up to.

and guess wad?

i-was-brushed-off.

OUCH.

yea, that definitely hurt.

but being me, all i could do was to hide my hurt and said it's okay.

the next day, Stitch didnt ask about what i wanted to say the day before (despite promising to do so).

instead, Stitch said that i was acting weird with all my short replies but that was simply because i don't know how to talk / react / reply to someone who brushed me off just as i was sharing.

it's like someone who's afraid to step out of the door and finally she took the courage and place one foot out then BAAM.

someone splash a bucket of cold water on her and tadaa~ she don't dare to step out of the house again.

what if someone does that again the next time she tries to step out of the house?

i guess not everyone has all the courage in the world to keep trying.

yes, i know Thomas Edison tried 1000? times before inventing a lightbulb.

but i don't really think i have the courage to be hurt 1000 times before opening up myself.

no, i'm not blaming Stitch. (yea, REALLY)

i'm just trying to reflect how asshole we humans can be sometimes?

i mean, let's not try to be nice in times when we can't be.

don't promise someone that you'll be listening to her when you don't have the time to do so.

sometimes, it's best to leave things as it is if you can't commit.

it's better to tell her u'll listen/help her another time because you don't have the time now than to brush her off.

trust me, it's more hurting to be brushed off.

this is gonna be a major lesson for me.

ikr.

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i love it when i ----- after an angsty / angry post.

suddenly, the ansty-ness within me will die down and i'll feel all happy and cheerful again.

that inner peace (y)

okay, despite having that ~~stupid~~ headache for the past few weeks, i went with my mummaye to meet the tour person ytd evening to make payment for our Batam trip.

that guy was sooooooooooooooo friendly.

and he was talking about his VILLAS in Bali.

just by listening, i was so EGGCITED!

NEXT TRIP : BALI! probably during my June holidays~~!!

The Highlights! :

1. Personal Chauffeur + Car + Petrol (Mark [the friendly guy] will top up for free everyday!)

2. Handphone (Return upon checkout)

3. Cows outside your villa (belong to Mark but it's for tourists to see!)

4. All sorts of Watersports.

5. Security 24/7

6. Maid

7. Pay USD 20 - 30 for a 45 mins Submarine experience! :D

8. There's this beach (don't know the name) where one part is black sand and the other part is white sand. Mark said that when the Sun shines on the black sand, they sparkle like diamonds! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

there are just so many things that he mentioned but i don't remember.

i'm gonna go this coming June~~~ *stay tuned*

okay, back to Batam.

this is my second time going to Batam

my first time to Batam was rather screwed.

I forgot if i'd blogged about it but yea.

everything was so rushed.

i hardly had any time to shop

most of my time there was staying in the resort which was rather boring.

the resort was.... *erhem* well..

only the rooms had air con, the living room didnt have and it was mad hot.

in order to have our meals, we have to spend 5 - 10 minutes going down the hill and after our meals, we have to climb back UP the hill.

the resort was super far from the shopping centres too.

about 30mins car ride?

we were all falling asleep in the VAN.

it wasn't even a comfy car.

the food was...

okay, i had to admit, the breakfast buffet was (y)

but our lunch was =.=

cuz we went with my mummaye's colleague's friends.

they practically ordered whatever they like without asking us. ):

BUT

despite all my negative experiences, i love Batam.

i love how time past slowly there and how i become uncontactable there.

LOL.

i love overseas trip because i can totally relax and not be a servant to technology.

i hate it when i touch my phone/laptop every now and then.

I truly enjoyed myself when i was in Cambodia.

i hardly touched my phone.

So was it in Batam.

Although this time round it's going to be a short 2d 1n trip, i have a feeling that i'm gonna totally enjoy it.

i'm gonna stay in a hotel! (y)

MAD LOVEE~~

it's gonna be my first time staying in a hotel. (DON'T LAUGH AT ME ): )

i'm gonna snap LOADS of photos and do a long long post on Batam :D

You guys should totally visit Batam at least once in your life.

although they don't really have SUPER cheap stuff like Bangkok, i love how the place is.

you can see everyone enjoying life, no one's rushing.

it's so calm and peaceful.

i don't see any kiasu / rude / loud behavior.

I'm gonna get Kueh Lapis and hopefully meet up with peiwen & dina to share with them :D

mad love their Kueh Lapis.

OH.

remember my hunt-for-sausage mission?

LOL.

i'm gonna go grab tons of it and come back to share with them too! :D

so nice of me. ikr :D

i was researching about the hotel - Golden View Hotel

there's steam & sauna! OMGGGG.

oh, the package that mummaye signed up for, there's traditional massage! (y)

the previous time i went to the _____ (not gonna mention the name of the resort), cannot have massage cuz nobody wants to ):

this time round, everyone's going for it! yayzxzx!

there's also a swimming pool & it looks clean! (the swimming pool at ____ was disgusting. the water was sea water and it looks dirty & cloudy)

there's also a fitness centre & billiard. but i don't think we'll be going to try them since we only have 2d 1n.

nonetheless, i'm satisfied with the itinerary!

i just realised that i've blogged a mad long post.

gonna stop here before i bore anyone out or make anyone's eyes drop out.

i don't think i'll be blogging all the way till i'm back from Batam.

shall do a post when i get back or perhaps i'll do a short post on friday.

STAY TUNED~! (y)

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