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有你真好。(:

Monday, October 03, 2011♥

有一点我能肯定，有你真好。(:

to all my friends, i love you so much (:

okayy, off to Bangkok by the time anyone reads this (:
will be back with LOADS of photos from BKK :D
mean while, stay awesome, everybody!

Labels: f for friends

smile with me at 5:04:00 AM

i wouldn't change any part of me, just to make you stay.

Monday, September 19, 2011♥

sudden gush of negative emotions hit me likaa 100km/hr train.

"Deep down inside my bitchy attitude,

lies a major insecure kid.
i don't remember much about my childhood.
all i remember was that i cried a lot.
i didn't had a happy childhood."

let's just leave it as that.

i'm afraid to be vulnerable.
it's just that i'm used to telling people "i'm okay"
to the extent that nobody thinks that i will ever have "not-okay" moments.

but, one day, i will be okay.
because 'what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' right?

You,
i don't know if you still do visit my blog like how you used to.
but i just wanna say that i'm sorry for MIA-ing from your life, again.
I just don't have the courage to say bye.
All along, being friends with you was like, a bonus to me.
I always push friends out of my life. always.
and they never came back.
but you were different. you come back, every time, forgiving me for all the stupid stuff that i do.
You were always there for me, knocking sense into me.
but this time, i'm really letting go.
i can't let this "push-forgive" friendship carry on like this.
i'm sorry.

and thank you for everything you've done for me all these years, never once giving up on me.

p.s it may seem silly but you don't really know the internal struggle in me, do you?

Organization interview on tuesday.
Wish me luck (:

oh, did i mention that i've officially kept all my npcc stuff in my cupboard (except for the PT kits since ATC's not over yet) and don't intend to touch them for a longgggggg longgggggg time.
phewww. that was a major decision you know.
the fact that npcc was a BIG part of my life since 2005, it was kinda hard to get used to life without npcc. but oh wellzxzx, i will survive :D
I had lots of fun during my years as QTSS CI and i thank all my fellow CIs and cadets for all the fun. all the best~ i love you guys soooooo much.

so, it's goodbye npcc, and hello internship (:

Labels: f for friends, left right left

smile with me at 4:47:00 AM

i just wanna say

Tuesday, June 28, 2011♥

i'll be taking a hiatus from blogging for awhile.
really freaking impossible to blog regularly yet finish my assignments on time.
REALLY SORRY!
i'll try to update A.S.A.P.
have an awesome week/month ahead! =D

#ijustwannasay
I REALLY WANT A GUY BESTFRIEND.
I WANT AN ELDER BROTHER!
okay, i really really really want an elder brother.
one that is really awesome.
one that will be there for me when i'm upset.
a shoulder for me to cry on
a pair of ears to listen to me
who will make the effort to make me smile (:
wake me up when i got lessons early in the morning. (DAMN IMPORTANT)
will never judge me no matter what i do.
do retarded stuff with me =D
in short, just BE NICE to me (:

no, not a boyf.

Labels: f for friends, i just wanna say, thoughts, true feelings

smile with me at 11:21:00 PM

it ends tonight.

Thursday, June 02, 2011♥

tonight, everything shall start and end tonight.

i'd enough of sad emotions, enough of emo posts.

the hurt should end tonight.

all memories shall be sealed up.

all the best, t.

Labels: f for friends, goodbyes, unhappy memories

smile with me at 10:48:00 PM

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"

someday, i'll be able to think back on our friendship, smile and laugh at all the silly moments we had together.

someday, i'll look back and realise that how strong i am to be able to go through all these.

someday, i'll learn to love again, without hurt.

i'm nice to people i want to be nice to.

don't ever try changing me.

because people who aren't nice to me don't deserve the good side of me.

and i can really be very very very very very bitchy to people who don't like me.

because the feelings are mutual. very mutual.

i used to think that as long as i'm nice to people, people will definitely be nice to me

but some people made me realise that there are just gonna be haters out there.

so JUST BE YOURSELF (:

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"
- unknown

think before you judge.

the girl, whom you judged at attention seeking because she laughs/talks loudly in class, might be crying silently under her blanket every night.

the guy whom you judged as lazy because he skips classes regularly might be sick/juggling with night jobs just to support his family.

the girl whom you judged as a whore because she is pregnant at the age of 18 might be a victim of rape and she's strong enough to not abort the child.

who are you to judge others when you're not even that great yourself?

who are you to belittle someone else when you're not that capable yourself?

here's a video on bullying.

share it with your friends, family.

i don't know if it's a real life story BUT we all know that this (bullying) happens everyday.

so stop judging today.

make this world a better place.

Taylor Swift's song - Mean.

if you're having a low self-esteem today, take some time to listen to the song (:

i hope that everyone will have an awesome day ahead (:

Labels: f for friends, reflection, tumblr

smile with me at 1:35:00 PM

i forgot a title.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011♥

i'm on the bus now, so i thought of blogging to kill time.
for those of you who don't understand chinese, don't mind my previous posts that are in chinese.
thought that chinese was the better language to express my feelings at that moment.
so here i am, back in english :D
i was very upset recently by people who dislike me for no apparent reason.

i didnt do anything to them (at all) and they just don't like me. i wonder why.

nonetheless, pw & dina spoke to me about it and yea, i'm feeling better already (:

i just wanna say, when i don't like you/something, i'll voice it out.
i don't really believe in solving problems by avoiding it.
so more often than not, i might appear to be really rude, bitchy and stuck up to you,
i totally apologize for that.

however, what i wish is that, if you don't like me, just say it out.

it will work 1000000 times better than stabbing my back.

i consider being way too outspoken as a flaw of mine

but i don't intend to change because i'd rather hurt you with truth than kill you with my lies.

trust me, when i start lying about how i feel towards you,

that's when i really don't bother about your existence in my life.

i don't give a shit to people like that.

similarly, when i scold you, that means u're at least someone to me. not some random strangers that i don't give a shit about.

despite saying this, i know that there are definitely people that fall in the category of judging me as self-centred, mean, bitchy, and someone who is demanding, and would always voice out her opinions.
but there will always be haters. i'm gonna accumulate good karma while u can accumulate all the bad karma. :D
have a good life yoo~ :D

Labels: f for friends, thoughts

smile with me at 11:36:00 AM

the club can't even handle me right naoo

Thursday, May 05, 2011♥

when everything seems like a blur,

when everything seems like black & white,

remember, there's always something good to look forward to.

It's times like this that make me wonder what did i do to deserve such awesome friends.

Although i lose friends every now and then, those that stayed were my motivation to move on each time after every upset.

I'm slowly getting out of the pain.

So promise me, you (all) will be there, holding on to my hand when i fall again.

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There are always haters in our lives.

(they are SUPER irritating aren't they?)

What is wrong with you?

Ugh, how i wish i can bitch slap you.

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Tomorrow is Cooling Day.

I'm gonna urge all of you once again to take this chance to think carefully, choose wisely on the one you think can truly represent citizens in the parliament. (y)

The future of Singapore lies in each and every one of your hand.

Do not only look at the policies that they are saying now.

Look at their track records, who is more trustworthy in your eyes (:

Decide using your mind, not your emotions :D

Once again, i'm gonna say this.

I am NOT claiming that i know politics. Neither am i saying that any party is good/bad. Just a penny for my thoughts on this issue :D

Labels: f for friends, GE 2011, tumblr

smile with me at 10:48:00 PM

save me before i lose myself.

Friday, April 01, 2011♥

getting hurt so many times,

i'm starting to lose faith in the word - friends.

Labels: f for friends

smile with me at 2:57:00 AM

be the reason for my smile.

i'm giving up on our friendship.

i've thought abt it for a long time.

i guess it's better for us not to be bounded by the word "friend".

things will be more relaxed since we're not friends.

10 years down the road, perhaps i'll regret.

but for now, i believe it's best we're not friends.

i don't wanna be hurt by your sudden hot-cold behavior :/

sorry for being selfish.

sorry for wanting to protect myself.

one day, i believe, we'll be friends once again.

and i'll always be waiting for that day (:

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nope, the post above isn't for those childish people who love to scold me on fb, on blog.

i won't take back what i said.

you can't possibly blog & fb scold me then expect me to forgive you when you simply blame it on poor anger management.

i'm sorry, qy isn't such a person anymore.

and one thing i really don't like?

people apologise via blogging.

what's worse?

mentioning my name in the post.

grrrr.

been very angsty recently :/

but i shall remind myself that there are still tons of things out there for me to be happy about.

smile everyone (:

SMILE WITH MEYYYYYYY =DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Labels: f for friends, thoughts

smile with me at 1:41:00 AM