MY STORY.

just a dream

Thursday, December 30, 2010♥

ever since i know you,
my life has been on a roller coaster.
:/
i'm about to stop the roller coaster cuz i can't take it anymore.
will you ask me to stay?

Labels: you(:

smile with me at 12:29:00 AM

no air no air~

Wednesday, December 29, 2010♥

I LOVE THIS PIC! HAHAHAHA.
SO CUTE~~~

HELLO TO EVERYONE FROM ANY COUNTRY (:
got hello in all sorts of language here (: HEH.

last one, HELLO ALL MY FRIENDS (:

just read my blog stats and found out that i actually have secret readers (:
HELLO ALL MY SECRET READERS. THANK YOU ALL VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH FOR READING MY BLOG (:
I'M A HAPPY GIRL (:
continue reading my blog kay (: TAG ME IF YOU WANT. HAHAHAHA
i feel like i'm having imaginary secret readers.
HAHAHA. :X ahh well :X

I FEEL SO MOTIVATED TO BLOG EVERYDAY NAOOOO XDDDDD
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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went out with PW today (:
met at PS for thai express
DONE LOTS OF CATCHING UP AND SHOPPING TODAY (:

the $6 earrings i bought today. WTS.
BROKE NAOOO ):
but on the other hand, quite nice nice xDDD LOL.

MATCHING NECKLACES. 3 for $7 NICE AYEEEEE (:
PW DID THIS USING THAI EXPRESS' TISSUE. ITCHY HANDS. TSK! HAHAHA.

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i'm blessed with awesome friends around me who would care for me whenever i'm feeling down (:
to all my awesome friends, I LOVE YOU ALL (:

and today,
i thought of you (:
talked about you (:
blogged about you (:
11:11 (:

Labels: happy days, thoughts, you(:

smile with me at 11:18:00 PM

feeling crappy :/

gonna find a job :/
i really don't wanna hear any more quarrels because of me already :/
):

be strong, qy.
you can do it (:

Labels: unhappy memories

smile with me at 10:27:00 PM

nth much, just pure random :P

new/old blogskin! (:
*skips around room happily*
i don't care if you think that it's not nice :P
going out with PW tmr! (:
thai express-ing~~
SUPER LOTS OF CATCH-UP TO BE DONE! (:
i feel so loved that someone is asking me out. HAHAHAHA.
and 2010 is ending in *checks calendar* 2 days' time!
this is such a rubbishy post :X
shall end with a HANDSOME photo xDDDDDDDDD
*goes crazy*

WTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. WHY IS HE SO HOT :X

p.s. i'm so proud of myself cuz i'm just so good at editing html codes.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA :X

Labels: random

smile with me at 2:55:00 AM

seriously, does anyone ever read my blog without me asking you to?
i feel that my blog is kinda dead :/
):

smile with me at 1:16:00 AM

you're a colorful frog

Tuesday, December 28, 2010♥

i thought you were different.
i thought you had your own mind.
but i guess i was wrong all along.
you were just like the rest.
utterly disappointed.

i was taken for granted, again.
just like a "disposable" use-once-throw-away toy.
whole night's mood is so dampened :/
i just need someone to be there. to tell me i'm not a use-once-throw-away toy :/

smile, qy, smile.

Labels: thoughts, unhappy memories

smile with me at 3:29:00 AM

to all of you in my life, i love you all (:

Monday, December 27, 2010♥

Hello! the group of ppl whom i've lived together with for 18 years (: Isn't it cool? to know a group of people since you were born (: Anyway, in this very special appreciation post, i would like to thank everyone of you. Thanks for teaching me so much and contributing to my growing up years. (: though we don't have a normal family relationship like any other normal families, i'm still thankful that we're staying under one roof (: i appreciate every single thing that each of you have done for me (: Best of health and i love you all! =D

DA INSANEEEEEEEE (: Thanks for the ULTIMATE FUN during my last 2 years of secondary school life (: thanks for accepting me the way i am. i'd been an ass during secondary school (yes, i know :X) but you guys were always there for me, despite all quarrels and stuff. thanks alot. though we've drifted apart (super hell apart) due to a lot of reasons, i just wanna say that you guys still meant a lot to me (: you guys are irreplaceable in my heart and 10 years down the road, i'll still remember each and every one of you. let's invite one another to our weddings kay! (: our kids should play together in future! (: All the best in your future & i love you all! =D

Hello! my bestiozxzxzxzxzxzxzx till something happened :/ i just wanna say, i really missed those times when we spent together. those retarded times where we just go out and out and out and out and out and chat till there's no tomorrow. thanks for being there for me no matter what (: if i could turn back time, i'll definitely prevent that something from happening. but truth is, i can't turn time back and i'm happy that u've found awesome friends (: you're one of my most awesomest friends i've made in my 18 yrs of lifeeee (: all the best for your o's results and i love you! =D

Hello A14 (CIs first) (: Thanks for everything you all have taught me since i became a CI (: Thanks for all the care and fun (: you guys are so awesomely fun (: however, as we've changed. we're not as close as we used to be. conflicts, politics are happening. things are not as fun as before. nonetheless, we're A14 and we stand together no matter what (: all the best for the area and i love you all! =D

Hello cadets of A14 (: Thanks for the fun during all the area events that i've participated (: enjoy your secondary school life to the fullest and i love you all! =D

Hello T02!!! (: Thanks for making my PCS life such a fun one! (: you guys are one bunch of crazy fellas. i never thought i would have so much fun. thank you each and every one of you for every single thing you've done (be it good or bad) we're left with 1 yr+/- i would really treasure the remaining time we have together as a class and memories will be kept in my heart forever and ever (: all the best for all of our projects and i love you all! =D

HELLO RETARDS xDDD HAHAHAHA. no, my loveeeeeeeesssss (: i can't explain my love for you all. i just LOVE you guys kay (: it's really surprising how 4 totally different people can be tgt. i guess, we're same same but different. we're all retarded in different ways. thanks for going thru all my UPs and DOWNs. i love the way i can share everything with you guys and not have the "i-am-alone" feeling ever again. this is the first time i have a close friendship with girls and i hope i didn't do it badly :X thanks for being my listening earssss and my counsellorsssss (: i can't thank enough i guess (: there's just one million and one things i want to thank you guys. awwhh. i hope even after we graduate, we can meet up often and go shopping, chit chat, be retarded and play with dina's 12 kids (: all the best and i love you all! =D

BPPPPPPPPP (: you're the first person (+ grace) that i talked to on the first day of school (: never knew we would be BP (: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE FOR ME! i know i haven't been a nice friend to you :/ i just don't know how to interact with people. ahh well. HAHAAHAHA. no la. i mean, i'm still learning how to be a good friend to someone. thanks for not abandoning me no matter what i do. i love you ttm kay. hope we'll still be super good BPs even after we graduate. i truly truly truly truly hope that our friendship never ends (: actually, i don't mind you talking about f. i know i always react damn big when you pda or when you talk about him. but i really don't mind kay. i just can't help disturbing you (: heh. i'm sorry for all the ill-treatment kay :X i promise i'll be a nicer person =DDD all the best and i love you! =D

Hello PWWWWWWWW. we weren't close till yr 2 i think? and we became super duper duper duper duper close (at least that's what i think) ever since that day (: thanks for letting me know that i'm not alonee~~ we're all in this together~~ (: i appreciate your advices and listening ear and being my essay buddy! waiting for me till i finish my essay! super touched~~ it's like i can tell you anything at any time and any where yet u'll give me your 100% attention. awwhhh (: i know i've been super irritating to talk about SOMETHING for like 1 million and 1 times to you but u've never asked me to shut up (: i love you for your patience towards me (: i love the fact that i can tell you anything (: thanks for all you've done. you're awesome the way you are (: i hope we'll be super duper close friends forever~~ all the best and i love you! =D

NOOB ASS WAI. thanks for your retardedness (: u're the most retarded person i've ever met in my whole life. we can never have a serious and proper convo for long. it will usually end up damn retarded and we'll both start LOL-ing or HAHA-ing. ah well. thanks for being such a noob. just don't think too much at times xD HAHAHA. well, and stop being so fickle-minded. you were the one who wanted me to be more girl-like and now i'm slightly girl-like, yet you keep complaining. pftt. i wonder what you want uhh! =D haha. anyway, thanks for initiating the convos in the past when i wasn't quite a msn-chatter. (: thanks for all the silly convos each night which made me laugh A BIT (: i hope ur retardedness never ends (: all the best and i love you! =D

SHI-ER-LING! thanks for all the cab-ride-chats! and 61 BUDDY! (: though our chats are usually kinda short, i just wanna take this opportunity to tell you that i think that u're a matured person with a mind of your own (: and i love you for this (: u're like everyone's friend and i hardly see you angry (: that's something i really damn peifu. HAHAHAHA. especially someone like me :X ahh well. thanks for being such a nice friend (: and quite cool uhh, our school used to be so close to one another and *poof* we're in the same sch, same course, same class (: thanks dude (: i love you for the way you are (: all the best and i love you! =D

ALOHAAA~! MY STUDY TRIP CLASSMATES~ THANKS FOR THE COMPANION DURING THE 5D 4N TRIP. I LOVE YOU ALL! ROCK ON AND SING *AND A TRIP TO CAMBODIAAA~~* ALL THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL! =D

DNP: i don't have an individual photo with you :X so let's just make do with this photo okay xD i know you since that ECH conference thing i guess? we got closer due to HI club and that idiotic "sanchewwww" thing =.= HAHA. but nonetheless, thanks for all the advices given from last time till now (: we were close before, but now, haha =X we all know what happened uhh :/ well. thanks for all the retarded chats and KIT KAT CHUNKY! dude i love you super loads for the kit kat chunkyssssssssss (: u're like santa claus uh. giving me chocolates during my sad days. i love you ttm (: but i know that kit kat chunky is gonna be the last one :X HAHAHAHAHA. wadever it is, thanks for being such a nice friend. I LOVE YOU~~ HAHAHHA. stop looking at yourself as someone who isn't a nice friend. you're nice in your own way (: i love you the way you are (: once again, thanks for that ~4 hours chat that day (: you rocks. take care, all the best and i love you! =D

TP: same thing, i don't have an individual photo with you so let's just use this photo kay. you see yourself and me in the same photo can le. HAHAHA. i feel so anyhow :X but well. i just know you not long ago. although you were the one who STARTED the "sanchew" thing >:0 though we just know each other not long ago, i'm so surprised at how nice you can be to everyone and to me of cuz. (: thanks for all the chats and nice words and wadever u've done for me kay (: it may seem very little to you but it means a lot to me (: u're a nice fella and i'm glad you're my friend (: thanks for all the late night chats(: u're like my late-night-msn-buddy. xDDDD u're REALLY SUPER NICE CAN. OMGGGGGGGGGG. :X i hope we'll be friends for a long long long time (: (like duh, who don't want a nice friend right =D) rock on, all the best and i love you! =D

HELLO. i know you won't be able to read this but i just wanna say, thanks for all the memories you've given me. grow up well and healthy. i love you (: i know i'll remember you forever and smile whenever i see this photo. thanks a lot for all the smiles and laughter you've brought to me. *hug* hope to see you if i ever return to Cambodia. all the best and i love you! =D

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to 050409, thanks for all the memories. though things have turned out to be like that, i just wanna say thank you to everything u've done for me. hopefully, in near future, we can be friends once again. when we all can put down our past and only look at our future, till then, i don't think we can really be friends. i hope u'll not do whatever u've done to hurt me to your future girl. (: all the best and i hope u'll find that special someone soon. (: take care, rock on and i love you! =D

Labels: 2010, reflection, thoughts

smile with me at 11:40:00 PM

And I might drive myself insane, If those lips aren't speakin my name

have i ever mentioned that i have a "fetish" for guys in specs? HAHAHA. :X

I FINISHED MY LEGALF ESSAY XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

*fireworks everywhere*

5 more days to 2011! :D

i'm gonna do a LONG LONG list of things-i-did-in-2010 xD

i LOVED 2010, but i'm EXCITED for 2011

super hyper after completing my essay :DDDDDD

bad headache but I JUST WANNA BE HIGHHHHH ALL NIGHT

okay, no night, it's 5.08am already :/ sighhhhh.

11:11 (:

Labels: happy days, random, thoughts, you(:

smile with me at 5:01:00 AM

cheer up, dude

Saturday, December 25, 2010♥

i just read your blog.
i don't really know what to say to you nor what to ask you.
just hope to let you know,
i'm here for you always (:

Labels: thoughts

smile with me at 10:46:00 PM

impossible

on x'mas, i've finally realised that i'm past the stage of having butterflies in my stomach/going super high/excitement when you talk to me/when i see you.

perhaps,
because deep in my heart,
i know we're impossible.

it's like an alarm constantly reminding me not to fall so deeply :/

Labels: thoughts, you(:

smile with me at 10:42:00 PM

random

Thursday, December 23, 2010♥

MY CONTACT LENSES ARE HERE~~ XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm happy (:
kaythxbye~ xD

MY COLOR FOR X'MAS

Labels: happy days, random

smile with me at 1:54:00 AM

SELFISH/SELFLESS

Wednesday, December 22, 2010♥

someone/some ppl,
i've been wanting to say this for a very long time. and since i've nth to start my post with, i thought, maybe i can start with you. frankly, i don't know you that well and i'm VERY sure you don't know me well too. so i would really appreciate if you can keep your UNTRUE comments about me to yourself. don't act like you know me well. i know myself best and all i can say is, when i choose to act like i've not heard bad comments about me, doesn't mean that i secretly admit to all those. it's just because i don't want to stir up any conflict. i don't see the need to stir up conflicts unneccessarily although i'm loud at times. so please, if i did not comment about you, i would really appreciate it if you could leave my life alone and not screw it up. <3

spent my monday and tuesday doing IE project :X
first day was from dhoby ghaut --> bugis --> some wholesale market near bugis --> one of the group member's house (which i didnt go cuz i was rushing home :X the place was at bishan! ): )
second one was at compassvale. WOAHHHHHHHH. lol
it was awkward cuz my IE was combined with one of my groupmate's friend's group. we don't know them, they don't know us :X haha xD
ahhh well :/
everything will be done by friday (:

MY CONTACT LENS STILL NOT HERE ):
done a bit of online shopping these few days. found some really cheap accessories (finally) xD so proud of myself. one of the best items i got for myself is this really nice juicy bracelet (picture below) NICEEEE RIGHT (: i don't care if you think that it's not nice. LOL.

i'm not a spendthrift okay. i spent more than 1 hour to decide if this $5 bracelet was worth buying xDDD

Credits: liliesshop.net

credits: payless.com

and i got something like this for $5 oso xD

i didnt get my accessories from those website i credit above. the photo was just to show what i bought (:

PW
WHY ARE YOU NOT BACK YET ): RAWRRRRR~~!!
haha. xDDD

CHRISTMAS' COMING! <3

all i want for christmas, is YOU (:

Labels: reflection, you(:

smile with me at 9:37:00 PM

Cambodia

Saturday, December 18, 2010♥

i'm back from Cambodia. 13 - 17 december.

quite a life-changing trip. not because it's my first plane ride or first time going overseas.

but because, i've learnt a lot during these 5days. i wouldn't dare to say that i have matured a lot from this trip. instead, i think my perceptions about many things have changed. What matters a lot in the past, doesn't really matter to me now already. things that i was very persistant about in the past suddenly seem so childish to me now :P also, the whole trip was very thought provoking. often, i would find myself leaving a place with my mind full of thoughts. especially after a home visit. i would really be thinking how exactly can we help so that they can really benefit from it.

i can't really describe with words how i feel about this whole trip. i guess, the only thing i can say is, i'm glad that i chose to go for the trip? <3

i wouldn't really go into details what happened during this whole trip cuz i'm just way too lazy to do so :X

YOU!
thanks for that 3 -4 hours chat <3 though i still don't believe that you purposely came over just to chat with me, i'm still thankful it (: you shared your secrets & i shared my ONE major secret :X haha. that feeling was good, though our convo started rather retarded-ly. and you gave me a scare when you appeared outside the window/door especially when the other channel was showing "chucky" =.= BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT, without you appearing, i would probably be sitting outside at the living room alone watching "Australia's Next Top Model" + "America's Masterchef" the whole night. HAHA :X thanks for the willingness to share what was in your complicated mind. i remember telling you that if someone were to open up your head, we would probably find a messed up head with wires connecting everywhere. okay, back to a serious note. our HTHT (?) session truly made me felt like we were friends at that moment. hahas. not like we weren't friends before this but rather, i could feel that our friendship isn't surface-y kind.
you made me very emo during our chat :X haha. you made me feel like falling for him was the worst decision ever made. HAHA. ahhh well. THANKS FOR THE TIME
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: but you love her. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. BOOHOO~ xDD

PW!
THANKS FOR SPAMMING MY FB WALL + COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO FETCH US! <3
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. <3
THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME HOME TO PUT MY BAG AND GOING TO VIVO TO LISTEN TO MY STORIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (my never-ending stories) xDDDDD
okay *clears throat* since that day, i've been talking and talking and talking and talking about him yet you never once asked me to shut up xD *huggggg* <3
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: but you love him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BOOHOO~ xDD

i feel so retarded <3 ahh well.

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i realised that the more i try to give up and distance myself away from you, the more i find myself getting closer to you.
so i've decided that i'm gonna stop trying to give up.
i just hope that our r/s remains like that.
i won't expect anything out of this.
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: <3

Labels: memories, reflection, you(:

smile with me at 4:05:00 PM

trueeeee (some)

Wednesday, December 08, 2010♥

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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it's so true for some of them :X
it's up to you to guess which is real to me xD haha.

Labels: happy days

smile with me at 11:09:00 PM

my heart is in a mess.
all smiles, laughters are fake.
a pretense to make me feel better.

smile with me at 10:40:00 PM

am i wad i think i am to you?

Monday, December 06, 2010♥

who i am to you?

any of you.

Labels: reflection

smile with me at 11:39:00 PM

Saturday, December 04, 2010♥

a few more hours to the marathon yet i'm still not sleeping.
ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!

smile with me at 7:43:00 PM

Friday, December 03, 2010♥

SCMS in 2 days time.
Cambodia study trip in 1 week.
super excited for both ^^

i was wondering on the bus why didnt i have any eyecandy or crushes in poly like in secondary school.
and i finally know why.

i'm afraid of the feeling that we'll be nothing but strangers or acquaintance after my 3 yrs of poly life.

that feeling sucks man. i don't wanna be nothing with ppl i love. ytrdy night, the thought of after 1yr plus more, all my poly friends are going to be my past. i no longer have reasons like "hey, let's meet in school to study or eat". it's like the link is broken. super upset over that thought. i dun wanna break any links. :/ but this is life. we move on.

i promise i'll make an extra effort to meet up with my loved ones in poly <3

i enjoyed my lunch date with pw and dina. we shared, laughed and get angry / sad together.
thanks for cheering me up <3

will continue my post when i get home

Labels: true feelings

smile with me at 5:22:00 PM

Spongebob squarepants ftw

Captain: Are you ready kids?
Kids: Aye-aye Captain.
Captain: I can't hear you...
Kids: Aye-Aye Captain!!
Captain: Oh! Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Absorbent and yellow and porous is he!
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: If nautical nonsense be something you wish...
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish!
Kids: SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: Ready?
EveryBody: SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain: SpongeBob.... SquarePants! Haha.

Labels: retarded moments

smile with me at 2:34:00 PM

i want a big hug.
i want chocolate.

but most importantly,
i need someone to knock some sense into me.

smile with me at 12:30:00 AM

Thursday, December 02, 2010♥

i know of something very shocking today.
i need chocolate.

chocolate boy,
where is my kit kat chunky ):

smile with me at 11:42:00 PM

grandpa

i wanted to blog a whole long list of materialistic wishes for my X'mas 2010.
but i've decided to just list this simple one.

i hope my grandpa doesn't have to suffer any pain <3
i want him to have the best of health.

Labels: family

smile with me at 1:38:00 AM