MY STORY.

i just wanna say

Tuesday, June 28, 2011♥

i'll be taking a hiatus from blogging for awhile.
really freaking impossible to blog regularly yet finish my assignments on time.
REALLY SORRY!
i'll try to update A.S.A.P.
have an awesome week/month ahead! =D

#ijustwannasay
I REALLY WANT A GUY BESTFRIEND.
I WANT AN ELDER BROTHER!
okay, i really really really want an elder brother.
one that is really awesome.
one that will be there for me when i'm upset.
a shoulder for me to cry on
a pair of ears to listen to me
who will make the effort to make me smile (:
wake me up when i got lessons early in the morning. (DAMN IMPORTANT)
will never judge me no matter what i do.
do retarded stuff with me =D
in short, just BE NICE to me (:

no, not a boyf.

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smile with me at 11:21:00 PM

6/28

Saturday, June 25, 2011♥

guess why my title says 6/28?
i got my inspiration from the attendance of my squad on monday's training.
i'm very tired of saying any further.
let's just leave it as "i'm utterly disappointed in them"
do whatever you guys want.
just don't ever tell me things like "i love npcc" "let's bond" and whatever related stuff.
suddenly, everything that you guys had ever promised, sounded like lies after lies to me.
thank you very much (y)

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i'm so sick of going to training.
maybe i should pon trainings too?
shall i?

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smile with me at 10:59:00 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2011♥

i haven't been controlling myself from thinking about you these few days.

i miss you, us, and all the memories.

deep down in me, i know that those memories were with a motive

but i'm still blindly holding on to them.

~~tell me how to forget you.~~

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and to the one who has been asking me those questions on formspring,
yea. i know who you are.
always know that.
you've always been the one knocking sense into me, getting me to realise another point of view.
you're just the silent guardian angel
i've always felt your presence.
thanks a lot.

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smile with me at 11:53:00 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2011♥

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smile with me at 3:16:00 AM

Saturday, June 18, 2011♥

hello people (:

i'm back from 30 hour famine camp! =D

but i'm too tired to blog.

shall do it tomorrow or monday!

till then... XD

smile with me at 11:23:00 PM

we are hungry, but they are starving!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011♥

haven't been blogging for the past i-don't-know-how-many-days.

my bad.

this post shan't be long.

just gonna tell ALL OF YOU GUYS, what i'll be doing for the coming weekend =D

as the photo says everything, YES!

i'm gonna be a facilitator for 30 hour famine camp 2011! =D

survived through the faci training + dry run :D

Day 0 starts on thursday, a final dry run + training & we're all set for camp on friday!

before i start "uttering" all my excitement for the camp,

shall give a short intro on what 30 hour famine camp is all about =D

30 hour Famine Camp is a fundraiser organized by World Vision where youth participants go without food for 30 hours straight.

They will be doing a series of activities, simulating the life of an individual in a third world country.

To make a stand against global hunger, injustice & poverty.

A worldwide event that will impact lives and benefit both the participants and the people who are living in poverty.

So what is World Vision about?

World Vision is a

"Christian relief, development and advocacy organisation dedicated to working with children, families and communities worldwide to reach their full potential by tackling the causes of poverty and injustice." (obtained from their website)

They serve all people regardless of age, gender, religion, race, differences.

and their work extends to more than 100million people in nearly 100 countries.

VERY meaningful right? =D

I'll leave the rest for you guys to read =D

Anyway, back to topic.

i'll be facilitating in the camp! (excitment x100000000000000000000000)

Frankly speaking, i've never participated in 30 hour famine camp before. Neither have i fasted for >8 hours before. (the last time i fasted for 8 hours was for my church)

But, i don't know why, this time, i'm really excited for it because i know that it is going to be a very very very very meaningful camp and i'll learn a lot from it.

I wonder what my group would be like since it consists of people from various schools. ranging from sec 3s - JC. (y)

I hope that they will all be niceeeeeee and sweet people =D

My "journey" to become a facilitator:

Interview

it was a very very short interview.

asking us "troubleshooting questions" and getting our responses.

Briefing us on the dates for training.

that's all >.<

Facilitator training:

A lecture on what world vision does and a bit of info on famine camp + our roles and duties.

Ice breaker (a very cute one) LOL.

Workshop on facilitation (very useful i tell you~)

A talk by a guy.. (i forgot his name) but confirm is someone very important in world vision. =D

Dry Run:

Went through Phase 1,2,4

i cannot leak out the details of the phases because the camp is not over yet! =D

shall take photos during the camp and show you guys (hopefully i remember)

This coming thursday, DAY 0 ! =D

i'll be updating my twitter (whenever i can use my phone) to update u guys on the progress of the camp!

soooooooo stay tuned!

lastly,

strongly urge all of you to join famine camp next year (2012)! =D

Individuals aged 15-18 can join as campers

Individuals aged 19 and above can join as facilitators!

Alternatively, you can check out World Vision's website to read up on the details to sponsor a child! =D

Readers from Singapore can click on the link below : www.worldvision.org.sg

Readers from other countries can google "world vision" and u'll find the World Vision organization of your country. =D

All the best to everyone!

shall blog about the camp when i'm back =D
have a blessed weekend!

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smile with me at 3:04:00 AM

it ends tonight.

Thursday, June 02, 2011♥

tonight, everything shall start and end tonight.

i'd enough of sad emotions, enough of emo posts.

the hurt should end tonight.

all memories shall be sealed up.

all the best, t.

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smile with me at 10:48:00 PM

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"

someday, i'll be able to think back on our friendship, smile and laugh at all the silly moments we had together.

someday, i'll look back and realise that how strong i am to be able to go through all these.

someday, i'll learn to love again, without hurt.

i'm nice to people i want to be nice to.

don't ever try changing me.

because people who aren't nice to me don't deserve the good side of me.

and i can really be very very very very very bitchy to people who don't like me.

because the feelings are mutual. very mutual.

i used to think that as long as i'm nice to people, people will definitely be nice to me

but some people made me realise that there are just gonna be haters out there.

so JUST BE YOURSELF (:

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"
- unknown

think before you judge.

the girl, whom you judged at attention seeking because she laughs/talks loudly in class, might be crying silently under her blanket every night.

the guy whom you judged as lazy because he skips classes regularly might be sick/juggling with night jobs just to support his family.

the girl whom you judged as a whore because she is pregnant at the age of 18 might be a victim of rape and she's strong enough to not abort the child.

who are you to judge others when you're not even that great yourself?

who are you to belittle someone else when you're not that capable yourself?

here's a video on bullying.

share it with your friends, family.

i don't know if it's a real life story BUT we all know that this (bullying) happens everyday.

so stop judging today.

make this world a better place.

Taylor Swift's song - Mean.

if you're having a low self-esteem today, take some time to listen to the song (:

i hope that everyone will have an awesome day ahead (:

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smile with me at 1:35:00 PM

tired of trying.

Wednesday, June 01, 2011♥

are you?

because i am.

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on a side note,

i wonder how people from overseas found my blog. (:

but still appreciate it! :D

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smile with me at 11:45:00 PM

i'm going through a really rough patch now.

towards you, all that's left is only disappointment.

and it's turning into resentment.

you made me realise that our friendship meant nth to you.

it was just a source of entertainment to you in the past.

i'm picking up these hidden meanings behind your actions that i was so afraid to know.

so afraid to the extent that i was in denial.

i didnt even dare to blog about us.

afraid to explore all these thoughts.

but all these efforts were useless and stupid.

utterly disappointed.

i'm changing, and i'm afraid of changing because i'm turning into someone i used to be.

i'm afraid to hate, afraid to dislike.

i'm most afraid to hurt.

i haven't been blogging happy thoughts recently. :/

so sorry.

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dear God,

i know You'll give me the strength to go through this rough patch.

Please help me be a better person.

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smile with me at 12:06:00 AM